106Hey so this is my first JeLu story and I'm so excited to see what everyone thinks! Sorry if any of the characters are OOC but hopefully I will get better. On with the story
Edited since Tuesday 22nd of July 2014
Lucy P.O.V
Tick. Tock Tick. Tock. I felt like smashing that damn clock. Waiting for the envitable was the worst. Waiting for what you may ask? Well it wasn't a what. It was a who. Natsu Dragneel of course. Knowing he would somehow break into my apartment I surpressed the urge to go take a shower. The last time I took a shower when Natsu barged in...Well let's just say that it was awkward between us for a whole two weeks. The memory made me shudder. It was about10:00o'clock now yet still the window remained closed ans everything in tacted.
"Ugh damn you Natsu " I mumbled under my breath. I didn't know how I felt about my best friend. It wasn't the same love I felt for my friend or the same love I'd felt for my mother. Could it be another type of love? Or merly Freindship? Thinking back I really don't know what drew me to Natsu, it certainly was not his smarts or his ability to withstand modes of transportation, so what was it? Standing from my arm chair and stretched my legs and hissed as they made a crack. I sat down close to the window and pushed it open. 'Not even locked...' I thought sadly. Magnolia was still buzzing with life. As per usual.
"Natsu...why can't I figure out what I'm feeling..I've done everything I can think of but still I feel oblivious... What else is there?" I was practically talking to myself but I needed to know. Spending all this time just wondering. "I don't know what else there is that I can do..can't you just say what I am to you?. Could we be anything more...?" I mumbled he last part as a tear slipped out of my eye. ? Quickly wiping it away I sighed turning away.
Suddenly I feel arms incase my form. Freezing up my body visibly stiffened. 'Oh no...'
"Luce..." he said. That voice...the smell of hot spices hit me in a blast. Why now...of all moments. With my emotions in a wreck like this I could do anything. "Dont cry...you're my friend. A part of fairy Tail...my nakama. " he tried to comfort me. Though the words hurt more then comforted me. "Your my precious nakama we have a bond that will last forever." he finished. That stung.
I let a few more tears slip turning away from me as he tried to hug me. This was met with a look of confusion and hurt sent towards me. Why did it hurt so much? It was what a friend would do...but did I even see Natsu as a friend? I stepped away from and wiped at my eyes to remove the salt water.
"Just leave...please" I asked pleadingly. The look he gave me implied that he didn't want to do such a thing. He wasn't going to have a choice.
"But Luce..." he insisted. Clearly he didn't understand the look that was spreading across my face. Sighing lightly, not deep enough for him to catch I contemplated whether to give him a Lucy kick or not. I decided against it though. I grabbed Natsu's arm and dragged him to the front door. By the time he knew what I intended on doing the door had slammed shut in his face. A groan was heard from the other side of the wood as I slid down against the door. There was talking from behind the door which I tuned out. Enough was enough.
Natsu was someone that I confused about. But now I was done. Whatever this feeling was...I'm done with it. I was going to move on with my life. Once I thought that I got up and locked both the door and the window. 'Fianlly get to take that shower...' I thought warily.
At The Guild (The Next Day)
Fairy Tail was booming. Even though it was still early in the afternoon. Only2:00 pm. Cana was drinking barrel after barrel of beer with Macao. Gajeel was chomping on a piece of metal whilst watching the solid script mage sat across from him and Happy was offering Carla yet another fish which she declined rudely. Mirajane busied herself at the bar. When she had served everyone she frowned at the faces in front of her. Team Natsu (excluding Lucy and Happy) and Wendy were all depressed by the blondes failure to appear so far that day. Which was uncommon. But in the light of yesterdays revelation she didn't blame her.
"Come on mina! Cheer up Lucy will come when she's ready" Mirajane said. In actual fact she was also worried. When Natsu came back she had a bad feeling and when she asked him what had happened. The former S-class mage understood immediately. The stellar spirit Mage always got through everything with a smile but Mira was not so sure she will this time.
"It's strange that she hasn't come..." Erza mumbled. "I think I should go check on her..." Erza concluded standing from the barstool.
"She needs time alone-" Mira was cut off by Gray.
"How would you know she needs time alone? You haven't talked to her...have you...?" Gray asked confused.
"Yes Mira please explain your reasoning." Erza said firmly wanting answers.
Mirajane P.O.V
Oh no. What have I said? If Lucy doesn't know what she's feeling how am I suppose to tell her teammates? But now what can I say? As if on cue my dilemma was solved as the guild's doors swung open revealing the bright smile of the spirit summoner herself. Everyone's attention was on the door way and the Mage that dwelled there. The blonde smiled sweetly before making her way towards us. Soon murmurs and quiet whispers broke out relating to the blondes appearance. Which were quietly and swiftly ignored by said blonde.
"Lucy!" Natsu yelled brightening completely. He then pounced on her and lached onto her, hugging her tightly. If things were the same then I'd usually have a matchmaking moment right now and think how perfect they were for each other but now I wasn't so sure if my match making instincts were on target. There was the other issue I had to discuss with the blonde. The reaction I got would certainly be proof of what Lucy may or may not be feeling towards our fire dragon slayer. I can't believe I wanted to pair those two together...
"Hey...Natsu...c-can't...breath!" she wheezed.
"Oh!" he released her and she sharply took in air. Catching her eyes I saw a twinge of sadness imbedded there. Though it was hidden well I could see it. You see when Lisanna 'died' I lost that sisterly bond that i had with her. Then Lucy appeared into my life and rekindled that bond. So when Lisanna came back we never got that back. We were still close but it wasn't the same as before. This I knew very well.
"Lucy-san how have you been?" Wendy asked. She looked concerned, she may have been able to sense it too.
"I'm good actually." she said simply but I could easily tell it was forced.
"So why we're you so late in getting here?" Gray asked curiously, eyebrow raised in a questioning manner.
"Etto...no reason..."She paused nervously. They all quirked an eyebrow but let it go.
"Well I'm glad you're back, now let's celebrate!" I said. The guild broke into cheers and the blonde chuckled. Same old Fairy Tail. Distracting them was all too easy. Now, time for some answers.
Lucy P.O.V
Everyone began partying and of course I ordered my favourite drink, a strawberry smoothie. They helped me think a lot. Yes I had a lot to think about. This feeling inside me made me question many things. Such things as did I really know myself? If I couldn't distinguish one feeling then how much did I really know about myself? If you couldn't already tell I was thinking of taking a leave of absence from the guild. To really find myself. Soul searching? Yeah. Maybe.
"So Lucy how've you really been and don't lie because I can tell." Mira said from behind the bar. Should of known I couldn't fool her. I smiled sadly.
"It's getting better I suppose..." I said. Truthfully since that day I had tried to figure out what this feeling was. Until I gave in and decided that I would just rid myself of it instead. I still wasn't completely sure of the feeling. But I knew it wasn't worth the hurt I was feeling.
"There's something I should tell you..." Mira said with uncertainty in her voice.
"What is it?" I asked curiously. From behind me I could hear whistles and cheers, I turned to see what was happening seeing something which confused me greatly but stung my heart too. Natsu and Erza. Kissing. I stared. It seemed as though time stopped for me as my eyes were glued to the pair that shared a sweet kiss. The whole guild was cheering for them, I even heard someone call them 'The armoured dragon'. This feeling...a burning sense of hurt...was it jealousy? Prying my eyes away I turned back to the take over Mage before me.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you Lucy..." she slighted sadly. This was hard to tackle.
"Why? It's not like this should effect me..." I stated weakly. I didn't want to believe what I knew was now true.
I'd fallen in love with Natsu. But it was one-sided.
"Are you okay?" Mira asked me. She was clearly concerned about me. That's what I loved about everyone here they were so caring. However at the moment I needed time to think.
"I'm alright I just need to be alone for a while." I said getting up from my stool, I then put the jewels I owed Mira on the counter and began walking to the exit. "Goodbye Mira." Was heard from the guilds doors.
"Bye Lucy!"she shouted over the noise. As I exited the guild, I managed to bump into someone who was going into the guild. A certain lightning dragon slayer.
"Watch where you're going blondie." he said. Usually I would of complained that he was a blonde too but right now I didn't have the effort to do so. He raised a brow as I didn't answer.
"Sorry." I said moving past him. Continuing down the street to my apartment I left the stunned dragon slayer on the doorstep of our guild, still gaping at my actions. When I eventually got home I noticed a few silver streams stretching down my face. All it did was add to my questions. Why did it hurt so much? It made no sense. Except I was truly attached to Natsu. I should of figured this out sooner. Thinking back to my previous thoughts of leaving the guild I nodded to myself. I'd stay for a while longer. Just to make some memories and then make a decision when I was calm and focused.
Hey I edited this chapter a lot so good? Bad? Please tell me because I have no idea where this going after a couple of chapters. And I want to thank everyone who has read this chapter sorry about the OOCness of it but I'm still counted as new to fanfiction so I don't know how to word it YET. Well good bye for now. :)
Edited sinceTuesday 22nd of July 2014