Grateful

I do not own anything.

'Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened'. – Dr Seuss

Looking back at it all I realised even though I still wish you were here and I'm still waiting for the impossible to happen, I'm so grateful for having something that makes saying goodbye so hard and that's you.

Fred.

Looking back down memory lane I wish I could've thanked you properly for all you've done.

You always made me laugh.

You taught me to make the best of every situation.

You showed me you can always smile through anything.

You helped me live in my dream.

You taught me to take a chance.

You taught me to challenge the impossible.

You showed me what it's like to have someone you can trust.

You taught me what it meant to be a twin.

You taught me what it meant to be a brother.

You taught me what it meant to be a friend.

It might not make a difference. You might not hear me. You might never know but it doesn't matter because I still want to give you the proper goodbye you deserve so without further ado here's what I wish I could've told you –

'Fred. Thank you for everything.

Thank you so much for being in my life. For teaching me what most people never learn in a lifetime. For the memories. For making me feel like I'm worth it. For never leaving me behind. For always putting me showing me what I never could've found alone. For never letting me give up. For being a true friend.

I'm not going to let you fade away. I'm not going to let you become just another memory.I'll never let myself forget no matter how painful it may be.

I wish we'd gone together but I'm glad if one of us had to take this burden of losing the other, it was me. I'm so grateful you never had to feel like this. I'd live on like this forever if it means you don't have to.

This is so painful to say and I'm hurting so much inside without you but I don't want you to see me cry. I don't want you to think you're the reason why. I don't want you to worry about me, because even if it kills me, I'm going to smile.'

'Thank you'