36Hey guys, let me start off by saying I am so sorry for not updating sooner. With the holidays and all of the snow storms we are getting but you probably don't want to hear excuses so I'm jjust going to start with the story now.
As I started to wake up I heard yelling outside my door. That's funny I don't ever remember going to sleep…and then it all came back to me. The birth certificate, my parent's, passing out. May and Coulson are my-my parents. I can't believe it! They knew this entire and time and never told me. I suddenly remembered the people arguing outside my door and listened to what was going on.
"Fitz, Simmons, Ward move out of the way and let us see her." Coulson shouted at them. I would have gone out there and yelled at Coulson for yelling at them but what I heard next made we wait.
"Sir, she had a panic attack when she found out! I highly doubt she wants to see either of you!" Ward yelled right back at Coulson. A panic attack?
"Ward, that's not for you to decide. This doesn't involve any of you-" I realized I started crying. Why? Why wouldn't they want me?
"Yes it does Agent May, it involves us because you hurt Skye, you hurt our friend, you hurt your daughter!" It was dead quiet after that but I'm not sure if it's because everyone was shocked Jemma would ever yell or if it's because they left. After a minute of silence I cracked my door open and looked out into the hallway. I saw Jemma sitting by my door and Leo and Ward pacing back and forth. I quickly wiped any stray tears away and pulled my door open all the way to let them know I was there. They all turned and just stared at me. I realized I probably looked terrible with tear stains on my face and my eyes all red and puffy but I didn't care and a part of me knew they didn't either.
"Hey guys." I whispered so quietly I'm surprised they heard me.
"Skye! Did, did you hear all that?" Leo asked nervously. I nodded silently with a sad smile on my face.
"How are you feeling?" Jemma asked me looking worried. I looked at all three of them and they all looked so worried about me.
"I'm fine guys." They all gave me knowing looks.
"Really I am." But I wasn't and that lie sounded fake even to me. Ward spoke up first.
"You know Skye, you don't always have to be the strong one. You don't always have to pretend like everything's alright." All my life I had to be the strong one, the one that the little kids could count on. I never was allowed to be the weak one because the younger kids at the orphanage needed me. If I didn't look after them no one would have, not even the adults who worked there. My entire life I had to keep all my emotions locked up inside me.
"If I'm not, who will be?" My voice broke mid-sentence and I started crying again. Ward who was closest to me at the time sat on my bed and pulled me into a hug and just held me as I cried. Jemma and Leo sat down on either side of us and rubbed my back. I cried the hardest I have ever cried. I don't understand why they didn't want to keep me. I don't understand why they would send me away to that orphanage. Haven't they ever heard stories of how orphans get treated at orphanages and foster homes? All the pain I've ever suffered was because of them. All the times I felt alone, unwanted, unloved was because of them. Or maybe it wasn't even them. Maybe it's just me that was the problem. I mean no one ever wanted to adopt me. None of the foster homes wanted to keep me. There must be something wrong with me that no one has ever wanted me.
I kept crying for what must have been over an hour. When I finished crying I pulled away from them.
"I-I'm going to get something to eat." I said as I stood up. They all got up also and backed out of my bunk.
"Would you like us to join you? I make a pretty good sandwich. Unless someone throws it away again." Leo threw Grant a look and I couldn't help but give a small laugh.
"No thanks guys, I just want to think for a bit. I'll be okay I promise." I gave them all a smile and walked to the kitchen. As I heated up some left over soup from the night before I had to wonder, will I be okay?
Okay guys that's chapter two. I really hope you like it. Sorry if the characters seem OOC. And again I'm sorry for the incredibly long wait. But thank you so freaking much to everyone who reviewed, followed, and favorited! It means so much that you guys like it! Hopefully I will update much much sooner and please review. Thanks guys!
-Olivia