3A.N. So, this is my first Teen Titan ff! please enjoy! R&R! This was partly inspired by Bring Me To Life; Evanescence. Great song, bit depressing. Oh well!
disclaimer; I don't own Teen Titans. If I did, it would still be airing, BBTerra would be canon, Terra would come back...yeah. Oh, that reminds me! All Terra bashers; back off! I don't diss Raven, or Robin or anyone, so you don't bash Terra! This is my turf!
To whoever's reading this note.
Don't let Beast Boy see this. Please. I know he will just mean well. But...I...I just can't face him. Not after what I did.
When you find this, you're probably going to visit my statue. Well, don't bother. I'm not there.
You see, I'm back. But don't worry; I won't cause any trouble. Because I'm not Terra anymore. Well, I am, I guess. But not the Terra you remember. She's gone. I've left her behind in my stone coffin. This is a new Terra. A Terra who doesn't have powers. Who's just a normal girl, living a normal life. She's not a hero. She's not a villain. She's just normal. She's my dream come true.
I'm so sorry for what I did. I never wanted all this to happen. I just wanted to be able to control my powers. To be accepted. Is that so bad?! I mean, do you really know how it felt? To have to run away from all you know, all you love, everything relying on just one tiny thread of hope that it'll protect them from whats inside? At least you all have each other. The Teen Titans. You're like one happy family. I had no one. i was alone; an insecure, lying, doubtful, walking danger zone. Always terrified of being shunned out for what I am.
Slade...he was my life ring. My light in the dark. He saved me from myself. Something the Teen Titans could never do. When I was so sure when you would hate me...when you shut me out...he was there. I thought I had finally found somewhere I belonged. But I guess in truth I was just more lost then I had ever been. Beast Boy...I was so stupid. I toyed with your emotions, trying to ignore the ones I was developing. You're the only one who saw me for me. You believed in me, even when I was about to snuff out your life. For you, everyone is equal. No matter gender, appearance, personality; everyone is equal in your eyes. You probably don't think that about me anymore. But that doesn't matter. I fell in love with you; three times. and each time I just broke your heart. I guess there's no third time lucky for me. and that's why I'm not coming back. Luck just isn't on my side. And I don't want to hurt you anymore.
As much as it's gonna kill me, watching you battle bad guys from the sidelines, I can't come back. Beast Boy, I'm sorry. I. Can't. I know I'll never move on from you. You're the best friend I ever had. But you need to move on. Don't waste your life over me. Live it to the full, Beast Boy. Please. If you ever loved me; forget me.
So, I guess this is the end of Terra's story. And the start of mine.
Yours forever,
Terra. ex-Teen Titan. Old friend. Old enemy. And a new person.