My name is Megan, I have ADHD, and I love reading fanfiction. I also love Logan Lerman.

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So I'm feeling sad because I just remembered this really great (though highly cliched) Dramione I read and I don't know what happened to it. Hermione was Voldemort's daughter and her real name was Isabella. He hypnotically brainwashed her into having the same ideals as him and his Death Eaters. She and Draco were falling for each other, and Pansy and Blaise were on the side. And Pansy was raped. And Hermione had her Dark Mark on her shoulder or something. And there was a copy of Hermione before she found out she was Voldemort's daughter who believes that she was just captured and held at Malfoy Manor, and she was made so no one would suspect Isabella of being Hermione. Yeah. It was really good and I don't remember the ending which leads me to believe that it was never finished and I can't find it in my favorites or alerts. ):

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NICOOOOOOO. I just can't- no- I- *cries* Reading the chapter with Nico and Jason and Cupid was just too much for me. For the rest of the book, Every couple of chapters I'd literally zone out in the middle of a sentence and start making myself upset by thinking about Nico. Poor, poor Nico. He developed a crush on Percy when he first met him and thought he was the hero he always imagined come to life. And then when Bianca died he blamed Percy and this image of a hero shattered, but he was so conflicted because he hated Percy, but was also liked him. So he hid away from the living world and made bad decisions and hid. And time and time again Percy's tried to reach out to Nico as a friend, but Nico's rejected him because he's so afraid to face his feelings. And even after he finally admitted it to Cupid, he still pushed Percy away. And he couldn't stand being around Annabeth not because he liked her, but because he was jealous of her. And even though he said he was over Percy, he still can't stand seeing him with Annabeth. Noooooo. Don't do this to yourself, Nico. ): Stop running! *tears up* WHY AM I SO FUCKING EMOTIONAL? And on top of it all, he grew up in the 30s/40s (not counting the Lotus Casino), so all he's ever known is to be ashamed of homosexuality.

It's just, ugh, Nico's my favorite character and it always upset me how he went from this geeky and adorable kid to this... this... antagonistic misanthropist? Is that redundant? It just always made me SO. SAD. My heart really went out to him in BotL when he kept making bad decisions because he was just hurt and confused. And now he's broken and won't let himself be patched up by anyone. No matter how much bullshit Percy or any other character went through, I've always believed Nico has it worst, because in his mind, he has no one. It's a terrible way to live–to force yourself to live. I think I sympathize with him the most because my biggest fear is abandonment/rejection.

For fuck's sake, I need to start a blog where I can put all of this deep shit instead of shoving it onto my profile, lol.

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I have a serious dilemma, guys. About a year ago, I limited myself to reading only Dramione oneshots. I spent too much time reading billions of different multi-chapter Dramione fics, and I realized it needed to stop. But lately, I've been itching to start reading their multi-chapter stories again... I don't want to go under again, though, because it was so difficult to resurface the first time...

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Harry Potter

Fred/Hermione

Draco/Hermione

Sirius/Hermione

Damn it, I'm one of thosepeople. The ones who ship so many people with Hermione. Well, it's only three, but still...

Sirius/OC

Blaise/Ginny

Scorpius/Rose

I kind of might have started shipping Ron/Luna maybe just a little?

Adventure Time

Finn/Flame Princess - Ugh, but seriously, Finn needs to get over her in the show

Fionna/Marshall Lee

Marceline/Bubblegum - THEY ARE CANON, BITCHES

Regular Show

Rigby/Eileen

Doctor Who

Ten/Rose

Nine/Rose

Jack/Donna - because how can you not?

Jenny/Vastra

Mortal Instruments

Jace/Clary

Magnus/Alec

Isabelle/Simon

Sebastian/Death BECAUSE HE CAN GO DIE.

... Valentine/Jocelyn... DON'T KILL ME. I DON'T WANT TO BE SHIPPED WITH DEATH, TOO. I ship Jocelyn/Pre-Father's-death-Valentine. It's just, Valentine was corrupt, yes, but he didn't even realize it. Like Clary said once, "What was the point of hating Valentine for being a monster when he didn't even know he was one?" He honestly thought that what he was doing was right, but I suppose that's a common characteristic for dictators. He was such a complex character in my opinion; I could go on and on... Jocelyn said that when they were married, he would go to her and tell her about all his deepest fears and insecurities and doubts; she was the only one he whole-heartedly trusted. And, d'aww, that just really tugged at my heartguts. After Jocelyn left him, he searched for her for 16 years. When he finally found her, she hated him completely, and I just... felt sorry for him. Lol, he kind of reminds me of the Ice King. And he really did love Jace and Sebastian in his own twisted way. Before he died, when he was begging Raziel to listen to him, he was saying how he gave up everything for his cause, and he really did. It makes me wonder what Valentine would be like if his father was never killed by a downworlder and OH MY GOD I JUST LOOKED IT UP AND HE HAS BROWN HAIR IN THE MOVIE. My life just fucking ended, guys. Anyway, if Valentine never started hating downworlders, what would've happened? It would be a lie to say that dictator's have never done any good, it's just that the damage they do far outweighs the improvement they cause. Would the Clave have been even more corrupt? Or could he have actually made it better? How would Sebastian and Clary have turned out? And Clary would never have met Jace and–Nevermind. Just forget everything I just said because Clary would never have met Jace.

Percy Jackson

Percy/Annabeth

Leo/Calypso - I will unabashedly admit that I was a Lazel shipper before HoH. But... I've been too hard on Frank

Frank/Hazel

Onesided Nico/Percy - Gods, I just thirst for angst

Nico/OC

Legend of Zelda

Link/Zelda - I always thought they were cute with all the little romantical hints. Then Skyward Sword came out and I was like ASDFGHJKL ZELINK FOREVA because they were finally seriously canon.

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Just wondering if this is only me, but I couldn't help but think this what with all the Sirius jokes. So you know how there's that expression, "dead serious"? If you said that around Sirius, he'd be all, "I'm Sirius, and I'm alive!" Blah, blah, blah. But I wonder if anyone's ever said that around Harry. Person goes, "I'm dead serious!" and Harry's like, "YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH!" It's just, of all expressions... *smiles and shakes head*