im a single mom of two now lol surprise surprise. (Thank society for flashdrives lol) awe check out this awesome poem:

Myself inflicting Hell

The wind is pushing me onward yet I resist it, the rain falls and lands on me laughing as they made impact soaking my clothes. I’m wet and shivering, the gravity holds me in place, trying to bring me to my knees trying to crush the very thing I’m trying to hold. Thunder roars close by yet faint. The lighting flashes me multiple times scarring my vision; heavy fragrance fills the air choking all and anything that breathes. Caught in the chaos of my own stupidity, I’m blind to the fact of a solution, a cure to my stupidity. The ground shakes with laughter cracking a smile two inches from my spot.

The heat skyrocketing chasing away its brethren making everything dry. The ground's cracking smile becomes wider slowly swallowing my still form. The gravity lets me go and the wind shoves me into the abyss, my screams are muffled by the abyss's dark grasp as I blindly feel myself fall. I hit the ground’s stomach and as I groan and got up, I feel more heat more moisture but it burned my skin. The ground's stomach starts to rumble and holes started forming releasing fumes so strong its choking the life out of me.

One thought comes to mind as I helplessly watch my end come closer i've realized that I had fallen from grace.

Eternal Nights in Hell

The Tunnel is forever dark.
No Light can penetrate it, no not even a sacred light.
Sense of longing grows stronger here.
Sense of completion is just a faded memory.
Pitch black, not one sound can be heard, no not even the heartbeats of a dying race.

Nothing can be said as to how this had come to pass.

Sense of smell is stronger here...the smell of decay and burning flesh.
The dying are screaming in agony.
Skin, pleasureful being stripped away exposing the beauty beneath it.
The screaming are muffled by the Tunnel's darkness.
Rotting corpses line the wall in full view of the blind.
The deaf cant hear the entertainment that's going on.

Sense of touch falls on fingerless hands that lost their miracles.
Awareness is the light to the blind and deaf but darkness is light to the sense of smell and touch.
The Tunnel is forever dark.
No sacred light can penetrate it.
Such is the way the eternal nights in Hell works.

Nothing is quick and painless but slow and agonizing.

Also I need some ideas on whatever Subject that i can turn into a story or a fanfic lol jkjk

Mind you, i like yaoi and hentai...in a way im like Grell who fawns obsessivly over sebastian!!!! hehe so you'll kno when you see my other stories (when i upload em) are yaoi based and also regular and normal story with teasers...