Suffocating It left me heart broken and nauseated. Like I just learned about the disturbing intercourse life of a very close relative- like a big sister/brother you use to look up to. Now all I wanted to do was cry; I wasted my heart on someone who didn't want it, who didn't even know. . . Not now not ever- not if I can help it. (This is not an OC, they're just an anonymous. . . . . like me.